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Post by laurel halle flint on Sept 9, 2013 0:51:19 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
Not in a hurry to get back to the dorms. Of course he wasn’t because that would make her life to simple. He was willing to stay up all night. Dam why had she ever agreed to start that relationship, things would have been so much easier if she would have just stuck to the routine. But no, Thad now had changed that. She was beginning to think that it was time to talk to him again. Maybe this time she would attempt to put her foot down when he persuaded her things were in fact good. Things were not good! She never got butterflies in her stomach around Thad like she did Damien. This, this was something real. She hadn’t felt something real in a very long time. She enjoyed it, he knew every part of her. He wasn’t going to question why she had a book in her face, he wasn’t going to question why she was practicing spells that weren’t even in the books. She loved it. LOVED IT? Merlin, no liked it, I like it, I like it a lot, I…really need to talk to Thad,” Laur thought as she bit down on her lip. She didn’t know what to concentrate on anymore. The spells, Thad, Damien, breathing, it was getting to the point where she had to focus on breathing. That wasn’t good. She shook her head realizing just how stuck she had gotten herself not it was her turn to get herself out. Thad…would…understand…ish? Who was she kidding if he found out that if it was Damien of all people things were definitely not going to go well. It was going to be like going up her father in a screaming match only she was pretty sure if Thad said the right thing she would fall back right into trying to make peace with him.
Laurel was still in shock that the spell had actually worked. It was easy to say that things didn’t exactly work out for her and she was used to dealing with her failures and comprising later for them. It had worked. It had worked! Laurel had few successes in life that when she did she felt like a five year old showing off her latest drawing on the fridge. She couldn’t believe it had happened. Okay—so maybe she did believe it happened after she had found herself in Damien’s arms. Her chin fit perfectly against his shoulder and she had almost forgotten the hug was lingering until Damien said her name. Her eyes shot open as she listened to him before she laughed. ”I know! Isn’t it fantastic?” Laur chirped before slowly unwrapping her arms from around him momentarily letting her hands linger on his shoulders. Laur couldn’t remember the last time she had been this happy. Feeling confident in herself was a rare, plus being with Damien helped the mood elevation times ten. Laur dropped her hands before standing up and kicking a few of the wood chunks. ”So that’s what it feels to be successful,” Laur laughed to herself before turning to look back to Damien. ”Well no wonder you became a scholar so much earlier than me, it feels amazing,” Laur turned using her finger to poke a tiny piece of wood that was inches from falling to the floor. She smiled turning to look back at Damien. ”Well now that I at least know the incantation was what I was messing up maybe you could help me with a few others, maybe some that are less noisy, the last thing I want is for Daniella to come bursting through the door,” Laur mumbled the Daniella part quietly.
Laur grabbed her book once more finding the parchment before unrolling it again. She quickly folded the first spell off. ”I mean if you could help me that much that quickly with just the first spell, maybe just maybe you’re my good luck charm,” Laur flashed him a smile before her eyes quickly started scanning the pages. Her eyes lit up at the second charm circled that she didn’t quite nail in her last practice. ”This one, Piertotum Locomotor, apparently they use this on the curse breaking field all the time especially free lancers,” Laur shrugged her shoulders before looking back up to Damien. ”The most I got out of this charm was a quill to dance. Apparently it’s not used often by most wizards,” Laur wasn’t sure if Damien knew this one. For her sake she sure hoped he did. ”We could try enchanting the blanket?” Laur suggested as she pointed back to blanket where they had been sitting. Laur laughed shaking her head as she twirled her wand in her left hand. ”I can’t believe you have me studying, and I’m enjoy it this much,” Laur turned standing next to him, her shoulder brushing up against his arm. ”Must be a decent at your job Professor Nott,”
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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Post by damien vincent nott on Sept 9, 2013 3:22:44 GMT
What had he gotten himself in to? He had told himself over and over that now was not the time to think about whatever these feelings for Laurel were. This was not the time. It might have been the place, but it was definitely not the time. The ideal time was never. At least, that's what Damien thought. He didn't think he had the luxury of caring that deeply for another person. He already had his sister to look after. He couldn't just leave her alone to fed for herself with their parents, that would be insane. It would be the type of thing he'd expect from Lestrange. And Damien would be damned if he was going to be anything like that nutcase. He had jokingly told Jasmyn several times that if he ever got like Thaddeus Lestrange, he wanted her to kill him. Only half of him was joking about it though. Damien knew he had his faults, even if he didn't want to (and wouldn't openly) admit it. But he was not like the Lestrange boy. So that meant that he wasn't able to think about what he wanted. Not only did he not want to think about whatever feelings he might have for Laur, it would be completely irresponsible for him to do so.
He couldn't help but smile at her reaction. She was so excited. If people got this excited whenever they accomplished something, he might have offered to help out more. But the fact of the matter was that he knew not everyone would react this way. And even if they did, it wouldn't quite be the same. Sure, he had a couple study buddies. Well, he wouldn't actually call them that. They were people he was willing to study with and they were decently close friends. But even then, he wasn't teaching anyone. They would sit in the same general area and read and take notes, or ask each other questions when the text could be read a couple of different ways. They were people that he went to when he needed a different perspective on something. They were not people he went to just because he wanted to show them how to do a spell. He felt very superior to most of the people he studied with. He might have enjoyed studying with them, but he wouldn't have been emotionally invested in their success or failure. But helping out Laurel was something completely different. So he stood up and got his own wand and did the decent thing, pointing it toward the chipped desk and moving them to a corner of the room so they were out of the way.
This way, Damien could let her have her excitement. He supposed that was what it had been like when he first started getting things right. He was pretty much a natural at it now, but there was no reason to ruin her mood by throwing that in her face. It would just make her depressed, or hate him, and he wanted neither of those things to happen. Besides, he did feel a bit excited that he had been the one to help her. Not Dahlia (of course not Dahlia, this was not her sort of thing), not Thaddeus (what a joke, as if he ever picked up a book), and not some Ravenclaw student either like Jas used when she didn't want to do her homework. It had been him that helped her get the charm right. He thought that was something he could be just a bit proud of.
“Something less noisy would probably be a good idea. We don't want any prefects coming up here and giving us detention.” He said the last part a bit sarcastically. Detention was basically a joke. It was about the only thing prefects had the power to hand out and on the occasion that Damien was unfortunate enough to have one, he usually just ended up reading anyway. He looked up at her when she said the last part. She'd mumbled something that he hadn't quite gotten. It took him a few minutes before he realized that staring while trying to figure it out was probably not the best thing to do. He'd just have to live with not knowing what it was she said. That was going to make things a little more difficult tonight. Damien wanted to know what she hadn't wanted him to hear her say.
Damien smirked. So he was her lucky charm? He'd be okay with that. No, no you wouldn't. Couldn't. He shouldn't have been happy that she just smiled at him. Just smiled. Something so simple. He walked over to her and glanced at her notes, though he knew exactly which spell she was talking about. “That one is really more in the Transfiguration category. Or at least, those are the books it pops up in most. But we can try that one if you like.” He nodded at the suggestion of using the blanket. Actually, that was probably the best thing in this room to start out on. As her shoulder brushed against him he had the thought that they couldn't help but make physical contact with each other tonight. He wondered what that was about but then reminded himself that there was no thinking about that tonight. He smiled at her comment. “I figured you enjoyed studying anyway, you just didn't want to admit it...” He laughed and then gestured at the blanket. “Okay, you said you could make a quill dance? Let's just see where we are with the blanket.” He gave her an encouraging smile. It would just be a good idea to see what she was already able to do. Then they could go from there.
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Post by laurel halle flint on Sept 10, 2013 0:29:59 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
Laurel smiled as Damien claimed he didn’t want detention. Her smile then grew into a smirk as she placed a hand at her hip. ”Are you saying you wouldn’t want to spend detention with me? I’m hurt,” Laurel laughed placing a hand over her heart as if she had been wounded. She let her hand drop from her hip before shrugging her shoulders. ”It’s okay, I understand,” She teased a little more. Laurel noticed the smirk that appeared on Damien’s face after she mentioned him being her lucky charm. For some reason without fail the pink on her cheeks came back into the picture. Don’t look at him, if boys could be a veela he is definitely one, don’t look, just don’t look Laurel…and you’re looking at him, frailty thy name is woman! Laurel Flint you are pathetic! She nodded as he claimed that it was more in the transfiguration category. She had no idea what the list was truly full with. She just knew it was the typical things Curse Breakers used in a day. She wanted to be able to get this one right but at least going into it knowing this was harder made her feel a little bit more at ease. It shouldn’t be difficult to mess up.
She laughed before biting on her lip casually shrugging her shoulders. ”I…do enjoy studying, yes I did just admit it. Yes, you can hold it over my head, and yes…I find myself checking out extra books all the time now that surround or even touch on curse breaking, I guess—for once I have a goal in my life—one that I really want to accomplish,” Laur replied with a small smile. ”It feels…nice,” She stated. She nodded as she stared down to the blanket as he claimed he wanted to see what she did first. She took a deep breath before seeing his smile. She coughed once shaking her head turning back towards the blanket. That smile, he actually thought she could do it. That same smile, made her desperately want to succeed. She didn’t want to let him down if he was being that kind to her. She just wanted to prove to him that maybe—maybe she was worth more than just a minute of his time. She wanted desperately to feel like she deserved someone like Damien Nott to take a second glance at her. So now I have two goal—dating…Thad, you are dating Thad,” Laur shook her head before lifting her wand. Her eyes focusing on the blanket; ”Py air toh tuhm—loh oh moh to,” Laur pronounced carefully. It had taken her five times to get the pronunciation down. Her wand shakily pointed at the blanket.
Laur was holding her breath without realizing it just hoping that maybe it would semi work. She just wanted to impress Damien—even make him proud. Prove she wasn’t the selfish and insecure girl she truly was. She wanted to pretend that even if it was just for a little while they she could be anyone she pleased to be and this was the part of her she wanted to show. The blanket carefully lifted. The corners of it folded once then unfolded, her eyes trained specifically at the corners. Her hand still shaking as she attempted to concentrate on folding each corner; it wasn’t exactly ground breaking but it was at least an improvement from what she had previously done. Laur felt confident as the blanket walked towards them. The blanket then started rolling itself up and then unrolling itself tightly as if to be sold in a fashion shop in Diagon Alley. Laur grinned with that same amount of excitement that had previously occurred. Don’t mess it up, you’re doing it Laurel, you’re actually doing it,” Laur turned to look at Damien grinning. The moment her eyes averted from the blanket the blanket stopped rolling then throwing itself at the two. Laur jumped turning back to where the blanket was before colliding into her face. She wasn’t even frustrated as she started laughing, her wand still out as the blanket stuck to her hair. She turned under the blanket looking up to Damien. ”Well—it was a decent try?” Laur offered as she let another small laugh escape. She obviously hadn’t meant that, but as she was completely bound by the blanket next to Damien she couldn’t say the blanket wasn’t completely reading her mind. ”If I could just get my wand—“ Laur mumbled as she attempted to shuffle her wand hand free.
She could feel the blanket tighten against them as Laur’s head was now against Damien’s chest. She could feel her wand hand behind her back where the blanket had tightened against them. Her cheeks flushed bright pink as her hair remained brilliant blonde as she attempted to get her hand free. ”Uh Damien…I can’t get my wand,” Laur chuckled. Without her wand out they were completely stuck. ”Apparently I gave it the characteristics of a Boa Constrictor,” Laur tried to laugh a little more again but to be honest minus her arm wrapped behind her back she didn’t mind being this close to Damien. Laur looked up to Damien, smiling gently before trying to wiggle her arm free. ”Where’s your wand…maybe…maybe,” Laur started as she tried wriggling her left arm free which she was pretty sure was stuck in the wrap against Damien’s chest. Laur struggle against it for a moment as the blanket squeezed tighter; Laur laughed against his chest before looking up into his eyes once again. ”Sorry Damien,” She whispered now feeling a little embarrassed. His eyes, they are the perfect shade of—no you are far too close for these thoughts! What about Thad…what about Thad, Thad…Thad…who?”Laur couldn’t break the gaze now, he had her trapped. She swore he had put a spell on her; the sad part was she didn’t ever want to be released from it.
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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Post by damien vincent nott on Sept 10, 2013 6:38:08 GMT
“I just meant that I'd rather spend time with you outside of detention.” A smirk came back to his face. She was just so great to be around. The problem was that she was dating that Thaddeus. He didn't mean to whine or anything, but he couldn't help but wonder what women saw in Lestrange. What did Thaddeus have that Damien did not? A shitty attitude, was all he could think of. Sometimes he wished he could be the kind of person that just ratted out guys. He knew very well that Thaddeus slept with other people, or at least pursued that option, while he was in relationships. But even if Thaddeus was an ass, Damien thought the news would hurt Laurel, and he just couldn't do that. Besides, what did he think he was going to do if he told her? Just sweep in and ask her out? He had already told himself he wasn't going to get involved. It was just too complicated. Damien was not supposed to feel too strongly about anyway. “I mean, if I had to be in detention with someone, I'd be more than glad if it was you. I'd just prefer to not be in detention.”
It was almost enough to hear her admit it – that she enjoyed studying. Damien thought it would have been nicer if she could say that to just anyone. But again, he cared about her. Just as friends, that's all... He didn't want hurt her by telling all of her secrets. If it had been someone he didn't care about, he wouldn't have given it a second thought. But this wasn't just anyone. This was Laurel. Just knowing that she was glad she had something to be proud of, or something that she could work for made him a little happier. That's a dangerous train of thought. Not the time, Damien. He didn't think he had ever had as much trouble staying focused as he did when she was around. Of course staying focused was still possible, it was just not easy.
Laur was going to attempt the spell. At least that meant that he had something else to pay attention to. Or it just meant that he had a real excuse to pay attention to her. The way she concentrated, she was trying so hard to get something right. It was absolutely adorable. And there it was again. Those thoughts that he really should not be thinking. He refocused and watched her wand work, listened to the pronunciation. Really, she had told him that she had done the spell on a quill, so Damien was pretty confident that she could control a blanket. It was just a little step up. He didn't even think they were supposed to know this spell yet. He didn't think it was something they taught in the school, it was something witches and wizards just had to learn on their own. A lot of things were like that. How on earth were they supposed to learn every spell in just seven short years? Damien was familiar with the spell, however. But Damien did a lot of reading. He did a lot of extra work and while he might not have been the best, he certainly held his own when it came to magic.
He was smiling as the blanket moved. Damien knew she could do it. It just took a little focus. Then she looked at him and his smile just got bigger. He couldn't help himself. And he should have. He should have looked away because as soon as she lost focus, the blanket seemed to develop a mind of its own. As the blanket moved toward Laur, Damien could hear himself laughing. But he was right next to her and the next thing he knew he had an arm around her waist and they were pressed together, held by the very object they had been trying to control. “Very nice try. It's progress.” He smiled at her, but he was wondering how they were going to get out of this mess.
One of Damien's arms was firmly wrapped around Laurel (in complete thanks to the ever tightening blanket), and the other was practically glued to his side. Well, at least he knew where his was, because apparently Laur couldn't get to hers. Not that knowing, or even the fact that it was in his hand, was going to do them any good right now. “Where is it? Did you drop it when the blanket went crazy?” Of course he was talking about her wand. He could do the spell himself if he had adequate arm room, but that just didn't seem like it was going to happen. Random chuckles escaped his lips but he was a little afraid to even laugh, the blanket seemed to get tighter whenever they struggled. He wondered just how little a motion would set it off. “I have mine, but it seems to be stuck to my side at the moment,” he breathed a laugh again, very aware now of how close they were. It was as if he had only now realized that their bodies were pressed together.
His breathing became more shallow, trying not to focus on the fact that they were physically closer than they had ever been before. How had his arm gotten wrapped around her? It had happened pretty quickly. He guessed that he had been trying to steady her when they got wrapped up together. “It's not your fault.” He didn't know why his voice was a whisper, it just seemed like that was the natural tone he should take. Or maybe it was because she had whispered the apology. It was an odd thing to apologize for. It was just as much his fault, he reasoned. They were in this together after all. Without thinking much about it he gently pressed his lips to the top of her head, hoping to be comforting. It felt like the natural thing to do. But as soon as he'd done it he felt incredibly guilty. She was dating someone else. He cleared his throat and tried to get back on track. “Sorry.” Was he? He wasn't sure. “Maybe I can get fix the blanket situation. I shouldn't really need the wand... it just really, really helps...” He didn't know if he'd be able to pull this off, especially with Laurel so close.
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Post by laurel halle flint on Sept 10, 2013 8:52:41 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
Why was he doing that? He kept continuing to make statements that made Laurel feel special and this wasn’t a feel good accomplished special. This was hinting. Could Damien possibly be struggling with the same situation just different notes? He couldn’t, she wasn’t worthy of him. She wasn’t worthy of his time, his patience, his intelligence. How could she even think this? He couldn’t, she shouldn’t, they wouldn’t. Laurel couldn’t focus though because he was smirking and staring directly at her completely clouding her thoughts. He was really good at that. He made everything that was usually normal seem completely insane. She wouldn’t mind a detention with him either. Her mind continued to race with thoughts that shouldn’t be anywhere near her mind. What was she going to do? She had to talk to Thad. She was going to have to finally stand up for herself. She had no idea why they were in the semi relationship but it was time to get rid of it. She would attempt to leave Damien’s name out of it but at the same time she didn’t want to lessen the fact that it was Damien. He was amazing and he deserved to know that. On the same note Laurel was not one to make everyone get up in arms about certain situations. She just hoped she could do so. Because it was clear Thad was the furthest thing from her mind lately.
Laurel didn’t know what to do as he claimed it was progress. Them being wrapped up by a blanket at her control wasn’t exactly the best kind of progress. She almost wished that she had just left it be. Things were difficult but she couldn’t truly say she minded the current position she was in. Laurel’s hair was quickly reacting to the present emotions she felt. Frustrated it turned bright red, realizing she was close to Damien it faded back to blonde. The process of hair shifting changed almost as quickly as how much they struggled to figure out how to get out of this one. Laur shook her head quickly when asked if it her wand had been dropped. ”No, it’s in my other hand twisted in a strange place behind my back, trust me it’s not very comfortable,” Laur chuckled as she wriggled her arm some more becoming very aware of his arm wrapped around her waist. She had wanted to be close to Damien but not trapped. It was like a Monkey’s paw wish back firing. She nodded as he claimed his wand was at his side. ”This—hand is the closest to escaping,” Laur mumbled squeezing her hand towards the opening her arm just barely escaping the blanket that squeezed harder in protest of Laurel barely getting one hand free. ”One down, and less breathing room to thank for it,” Laurel laughed before shaking her head realizing she had gotten them into this huge mess.
It wasn’t her fault? Of course it was. It was her charm, it was her studying habits, she interrupted his peaceful night. She was having a really hard time finding what wasn’t her fault about the entire situation. Not to mention he had whispered and it sounded like he meant it. One day someone will whisper to you like this Laurel, and none of it will contain an ounce of selfish motive. Someone simply trying to be truthful, She wanted it so badly. She wanted to be good enough, his whisper. His breath present against her skin. He meant it, that was the best thing about Damien was that he was always genuine. It made her constantly wonder if in the future she could ever deserve a person such as he. Laurel inhaled sharply the moment she felt Damien’s lips touch her skin. Did he—did he just…is it possible Laurel? Maybe you’re screw ups haven’t sent him running away, just maybe he feels like you do, it’s not crazy it might just be possible!” Laur heard the instant sorry but she was still trying to catch her breath. She almost needed to take a step back but realized that was fairly impossible considering she was tied to Damien by the ridiculous blanket.
Laurel blinked a few times as he claimed that he was sorry and then claimed a wand would help. He had kissed her and for a split moment Laurel didn’t care about the predicament they were in. She could care less about anything in the world beside that kiss on the forehead. Maybe the tension wasn’t just one side. Maybe Damien was just foolish enough to think Laurel was worthy. Just maybe. Her mind was racing and just as Damien finished his sentence she used her free hand to hold his chin, barely letting him finish his sentence before tilting her head to the side and pressing her lips against his. WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING? Laurel for a split moment had forgotten she had Thad, that Dahlia was one of her best friends. She forgot that Damien was used to being a big brother and often had to comfort someone. Her hair immediately shot to a bleach blonde as she then felt rather stupid, for maybe taking his sign in a different way. She was so incredibly stupid and she was bound to him so she couldn’t even run away to cry. She released his lips and sunk back to her flat feet, thus realizing what she had just done. Her pinks flushing a dark crimson this time. ”Damien…I’m so sorry, I can, I can explain, I—I don’t,” Laurel was stuttering like the Hufflepuff Quidditch Star and she was extremely embarrassed. What was she going to tell Thad? Oh Thad, nice to see you again. So I think we need to break up because I might have accidentally kissed someone and—enjoyed it. I’m not usually a cheater so it would be nice if we could part ways, besides you can stop staring at Jas and make a move. You want his name—yeah that probably isn’t a good idea if it counts, I kissed him? Nott? No--no of course not. Please don't hurt him, What was she going to do, she wanted to kiss him again, she didn’t even care that they were in this extremely awkward situation physically and well socially. She just wanted his skin on her lips. She attempted to wriggle her hand with the wand in it.
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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Post by damien vincent nott on Sept 11, 2013 3:31:50 GMT
Their situation probably would have been hysterical to a third party person watching. As it was, it was still kind of funny. Damien was sure he'd look back on this and laugh a whole lot more than he was right now, partially because Laurel was laughing enough for the both of them and he was just a little bit scared that if he added his laughter to the mix the blanket would get even tighter and they'd be trapped like this forever. That might not have been such a huge deal. It would mean that Laur would most likely have to break up with Lestrange because what mad would let their girlfriend spend all of their time this close to another man? Then again, Lestrange was crazy so he might be okay with it if it meant that Damien was going to be having a whole lot of sexual tension for the rest of his life. Somewhere in the back of his mind Damien knew that that scenario was highly unlikely. If worst came to worst they could always find a teacher, explain they'd been studying and maybe stretch the truth just a bit and say it happened before curfew but they'd been trying to get themselves unstuck for the past several hours. Damien probably could have pulled off that story but he probably would have had to tell the teacher that he was tutoring Laurel since her reputation didn't exactly match up to the tale.
It was a good thing this was a little amusing, because if it hadn't been Damien might have been knee deep in an anxiety attack. Already he was trying very hard to focus on the entertaining aspects of this situation. But he was finding it difficult to think about the good things and not linger on the fact that Laur was so close to him right now. On the bright side, that meant his mind was more concerned with that than getting panicky over their little mess. The down side was that they were trapped in a blanket. Too bad that wasn't as relaxing as it sounded.
Regret wasn't a word he would have used to describe how he felt about what he had done. It was just guilt. Pure guilt. He was making things complicated for her and himself. If the only person who would be affected by this was Thaddeus Lestrange, Damien wouldn't have given the action a second thought. But that wasn't the case. This would affect Dahlia, Laur, himself, and possibly Jasmyn. He was very concerned about what his feelings for her were. He hadn't felt anything like this before, so he wasn't exactly sure what he was supposed to do. And he hated acting on instinct, especially when that instinct told him to kiss a woman who was already in a relationship. But that's what he'd done, and now she was kissing him. Either their feelings were mutual or this incident was really more traumatic than he had originally thought. What surprised him was how natural this whole thing felt. Even if it was slightly awkward from the tension, it felt pretty real. If his hand wasn't already attached to her waist, it would have moved there on its own. Instead he felt his arm reflexively tighten as if he were pulling her closer, which just wasn't possible at the moment.
Laurel was apologizing again. For a moment he couldn't figure out why. He had felt physically relieved that these feelings were just things in his head. But now she wanted to explain them. He didn't know why since he knew very well that she was a taken woman, but it felt like a slap to the face. He did his best to conceal that. He was a master at making his face neutral by now. “Yeah, me too. I mean you're dating Lestrange so, that was probably not the best thing to do.” He looked away as he said it, focusing now on getting his wand back. “Let's just get out of this blanket and then we can... I don't know.” He finished the sentence while struggling to move his arm. It took a little while but he finally had his arm between them, pointed at the inside of the blanket. “Py-air-toh-tuhm Loh-koh-moh-tor.” Increasing anxiety driven, Damien made the blanket slowly unwind itself. Slowly because he honestly didn't think he could make it release them fast, and he wasn't entirely happy to have the option of being close to her. But he was very obviously a little hurt now. His concentration on the spell had made him forget to look neutral. Normally, neutrality came pretty easy to him. It was just how he was. But for some reason, he was definitely not neutral about Laurel. He ended the spell as the blanket moved to the floor and only stopped focusing when he was satisfied it would stay there. Then he looked at Laurel. “So what was that then?” He was sure he didn't have to explain what it was he was talking about. Of course he meant her kissing him. Even though he wanted to, he couldn't make his voice sound hard. He wanted to be angry. But he wasn't, just a little hurt was all. She wanted to apologize for kissing him. Why was that so hurtful?
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Post by laurel halle flint on Oct 5, 2013 17:11:51 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
For some reason dating Thad had always been a mistake in her mind recently but she didn’t realize how much of an idiotic choice it was until it crossed Damien’s lips. The words were like venom seizing through her veins taking over every nerve one by one. Her mouth fell open as he claimed it wasn’t a good idea. But he had kissed her forehead first! He started it and naturally Laurel finished it. She couldn’t stand the tease of that kiss on her forehead it was Damien she had to kiss him. She glared towards the ground trying not to feel a little betrayed. She wasn’t quite sure by what. Her own feelings for Damien. Maybe he hadn’t meant the kiss on the forehea-he did though! Why would he claim it wasn’t okay! Laurel didn’t know what to do. She didn’t want to be Thad’s girl anymore. Or at least one of the girls anymore; She didn’t want any of that. If she could trade it in it would have already been done. She listened as he explained he just wanted to get the blankets off. Laurel quickly looked away from him trying not to meet his gaze as he fixed the blankets. Like always he was able to do it correctly as she felt them unwind. Her heart started pounding again as she could still feel his hand on her back. She just wanted it to stay like that, what was the crime?
That’s when he spoke and she realized she wasn’t the only one hurting. Maybe her first thoughts were right? Maybe he…but was that even possible? Was she just being a ridiculous little school girl hoping that the boy of her dreams actually wanted her back too? Only problem was that Thad was in the way. It was probably why Damien kept bringing him up. GAH! Why did she ever even think dating Thad was a good idea. She let her shoulders slump as she couldn’t take hearing Damien sad. It was going to all come out. It was going to come out like word vomit and there was nothing or no one to stop her now. Was she ready? She was going to have to answer to Dahl as well. She didn’t want to hurt her friend but with Damien’s voice and facial expression she knew he was hurting just as much as she was and this was the final straw. It was coming…she hoped he was ready for it because he had opened a can of worms that couldn’t be suppressed. ”What was it? What was it…let me think…” Laur pretended for a moment before the assurance in her voice was completely gone. ”Let me explain then since you can’t figure it out…you know very well that there are two sides. Theirs the real me and the façade that I put up in order to keep people happy, right? Well…to put it simply…” Laurel stared down to hands, wringing her fingers in one hands as she took a deep breath she looked back up to Damien. ”I think…the real me has wanted to do that for quite…some time…now,” Laur bit down on her bottom lip turning away from him scared of the consequence of telling him everything.
”I think it was the very first time you caught me reading. You weren’t like everyone else who attempted to take the book away, laugh, poke fun that I was actually reading. It was almost like you expected it. I think…I think Damien Nott, that’s when you won, without even realizing it. But you always had your others, I had mine, and it just seemed impossible so I hid…because that’s what I’m good at,” Laur mumbled a little ashamed of what she was revealing. ”Who am I to make your life miserable too…more than what you already have to go through, and with Dahl and then there was Thad. I know you guys love to hate each other but he was my friend and a decent one too! I just wish I would have kept it at a friend level,” Laur whispered the last comment almost hoping Damien didn’t hear her. She inhaled taking a deep shaky breath before staring down to her feet. ”I’m trapped and I have no one to blame but myself. The façade is loyal to Thad because he was everything the old me wanted, and the friendship but I know he isn’t loyal to me. Merlin only knows who, what, where, and why. I’m not stupid…and I see the way he looks—“ Laur paused maybe not wanting to burry Thad. He was still her friend after all and she cared about him. ”Let’s just say I know he doesn’t love me either,” Laur could feel the tears starting to greet the corner of her eyes and she wasn’t about to let them fall. ”So welcome to my mind it’s dark and chaotic, and currently very confused…right now, I don’t want to be either of me, I mean both ways I hurt a lot of people I care about,” Laur felt one tear slip as she wrapped her arms around her waist staring back towards the sky. ”I hate myself for so many different things,” Laur whispered as she felt another tear fall. It was a lose-lose situation. She left out the part about Thad probably not letting her go either. She just wanted to crawl in a hole, not to mention she had spilled everything, everything to him. ”Feel free to…run away at any point, that was a lot of—“ Laur felt another tear slip as she quickly uncrossed her arms wiping it away. information…”
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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Post by damien vincent nott on Oct 7, 2013 2:53:50 GMT
Things were taking a turn. Whether it was for the better or worse Damien didn't know. It could be either depending on how he looked at it. He didn't want to get into the pros and cons of having feelings for someone tonight, but it looked as though he wasn't going to have a choice. Kissing Laurel had pushed the issue. Yes, technically he supposed she had kissed him, but it wasn't as though he had done anything to stop it. And why should he? He certainly liked Laurel; he wasn't in a relationship with Jasmyn; and he hated Thaddeus with a passion that words could only begin to describe. Theoretically though should have been best friends. Damien's father was the leader of the Death Eaters, even if they were mostly secret right now despite the attack on the Aurors, and Thaddeus Lestrange was exactly the kind of person his father would recruit after graduation. That was probably the issue. In Damien's mind, Lestrange was more of the son that Theodore should have gotten. Not to mention the fact that Damien hated the way Lestrange treated Jasmyn, or any girl that caught his eye. And he had taken Laurel. In all fairness, Damien had refused to admit even to himself that he had been developing feelings for the girl, but still, it seemed as though Thaddeus had just about everything.
How the hell was he supposed to respond to this? The entire situation was nothing like Damien had ever experienced before. Sure, he had been in a few relationships in the past and he was very close with Jasmyn despite their lack of an actual relationship. But feelings were something Damien didn't know if he could handle. Put that on top of the fact that he had been waiting for a smart ass remark but hadn't gotten it and the result was a Damien that was a bit confused. He knew Laurel was more than she let other people see, but he had suspected that her initial reflex would be to play up the sarcasm. Hadn't she said she wished he was like the others? People who knew nothing of her desire to actually learn something? He figured she would treat him that way. And then there was the fact that she was dating Thaddeus Lestrange, so there would be no reason that she would want to be with him. As far as Damien knew, Laurel was perfectly content in her current relationship.
Instead she had given him a confession of sorts. Was it wrong that he was glad she felt something for him too? It made everything entirely too confusing, but he couldn't help but be just a little happy that he actually had a chance. Or would have a chance if Thaddeus wasn't currently taking up the boyfriend role in Laurel's life. And if that place was free would he take it? Of course he wanted to, or at least he was pretty sure that was what he wanted. He knew it would make things very complicated, but he didn't know if he cared anymore. Part of him was so sick of thinking about everyone else that he felt as though he was going to burst if he didn't do something just because he wanted to. On the other hand, he had his responsibilities. He had Dahlia and his father to worry about. He had to think about the big picture, not just the immediate group involved. He wondered if Dahlia would mind too terribly if he dated her friend before realizing that at the moment it wasn't even possible. Damien refused to be that guy. The one who took someone's girlfriend, even if that someone was a pain in the ass. And even if they did date, he didn't know if he could deal with the fake and real Laurel. How was he supposed to explain their theoretical relationship if she was the opposite of what most people would know he was looking for. He was pretty sure that everyone expected him to end up with a pureblooded Ravenclaw, just because he had that type of personality and it would still appease his father. Laurel's public face was not one of studiousness.
In a perfect world he would have time to process this. It must not have been that far off, because Laurel was giving him the option of leaving. Maybe he should have left. He wasn't sure he could deal with her tears and he didn't want to do any of this right now. But that wasn't who Damien was. He might be egotistical and he could be a real jerk at times. He was definitely someone who thought he was better than everyone else based on blood status even if he didn't agree that all of the lesser people needed to be killed off. But he wasn't the type to just leave a friend, especially when they were upset. So instead he took a deep breath. Damn, why did things have to be so complicated? He took the few steps to walk back over to her and stepped in front of her. His hand moved to her cheek and his thumb wiped away a tear from her face. “Thaddeus Lestrange is an asshole.” He lowered his arm again, the contact being just a little too much for him to handle at the moment. But at least he wasn't leaving to deal with this on his own. “He has a sick obsession with Jasmyn that she seems to return. She usually does whatever he wants her to. I don't think that's much of a secret. Like you tried to say, he looks at her.” He tried not to show how frustrating that was. While he might not have romantic feelings for the sixth year, she was still one of his best friends. But it wasn't something that needed stacked onto Laurel's worries. “He is insane. I've said it over and over and I really don't think anyone listens, but the things he does are not things that mentally sound people would do.” Damien took a small step backwards to put a little distance between them, even if he was reluctant to do so. “But he is an asshole that you're dating. I don't like it, obviously. And if you think your mind is confused you should take a trip in mine.” He tried to smile at that, not because he thought he needed to or to make light of the conversation, but because it just felt right. It was slightly amusing that with all of their concerns, this was what they were talking about, even if Damien didn't want to be having this particular conversation. “I've never felt for anyone the way I've started feeling for you. But I don't want to turn you into someone who is unfaithful. Even if the other person is Thaddeus. I don't want to be that guy. I'm not that guy. Thaddeus is that guy.” It was all very complicated and Damien didn't know what else he could or should say. “But I'm not leaving.” As if to emphasize his point he crossed his arms over his chest and looked up. He realized after he said it that he had meant the statement metaphorically as well as physically. With everything that was being said, there was no way that Damien could turn back now.
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Post by laurel halle flint on Oct 8, 2013 4:17:08 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
Laurel held her breath as she heard his footsteps. That was it. He was just going to leave. She had ruined everything. She felt a couple more tears fall. How would she explain this to Dahl? He was Damien so he probably wouldn’t make a scene but he knew everything now. He knew parts of her that she didn’t even want to admit to herself and yet…for a moment time stopped. Silence fell over the tower when she felt his thumb wipe away the tears. He hadn’t left. She held her breath trying not to let the sigh of relief escape that wanted too. Laurel couldn’t completely agree. Once again she had that strange loyalty to Thad and for some reason she couldn’t shake it. Even when she attempted to break it off and he seemed to steer her elsewhere. Why? She had no idea. She was almost scared that she was part of some secret plot that was being stirred up. The last thing she wanted was to get too involved. Technically, she was already involved. She couldn’t help but nod as Damien revealed Thad’s obsession with Jas. Jas and Laurel had been friends before the cold shoulder started. Everything would have just been perfect if she would have just turned down Thad’s request. She felt slightly bad for listening to what Damien was saying about Thad. He meant…well? Did he though? Did Laurel truly think he meant well? Things with his father had gotten so bad lately but they all had it rough? His father was a little more aggressive. She had no idea what to feel about Thad.
Laurel continued to stare at the floor before Damien said once more that she was dating Thad and he didn’t like it. Once again the words dripped like venom. She was pretty sure the words were far more foul the second time around. She hated hearing him say such things. She would have loved to disappear. Was that possible? She would do it in a seconds notice. She met his gaze right before his smile. His smile. Laurel wasn’t sure what it was about his smile but even through the tear stained eyes and solid frown on her face it cracked for just a moment. She felt the corners of her lips raise as smiled softly back quickly wiping at the other eye. ”We’ve got quite the mess on our hands…” Laur whispered staring quickly back down to the ground which seemed to prove safer to look at then his face. That’s when he did it though. He admitted it. Laur froze, her hair quickly brightening to the fiery red she often wore. I've never felt for anyone the way I've started feeling for you. she shouldn’t have been so happy. But it was true. All of it, she hadn’t misread him. He was dealing with it too. But then he brought up Thad and being unfaithful. But Thad was never going to let her leave. Not to mention he was never faithful. That didn’t mean she wanted her character to suffer because of it but what was she meant to do? But I’m not leaving Merlin, he made her want him so bad. He was the desirable bad/good guy! Was it even possible? He appeared a bad guy but in all reality he was a decent guy who knew her better than anyone else. She was starting to challenge even better then Dahl or Sage.
She watched as he crossed his arms almost confirming his statement. She could feel the tears threatening to fall again. ”He’s not—“ Laurel started again. If they hadn’t had the super awkward conversation she probably would have just asked for a hug and shrug everything off. But things were different now. She could care less if she was made unfaithful to Thad but she would never want to taint Damien’s name. She settled for mimicking him and crossing her own arms. ”I don’t know how to fix this…because I really don’t—I mean now that I kno—“ Laur stumbled her hair turning blonde as her words stumbled to form a sentence. She was turning into this little awkward school girl. They liked each other, they both knew, and yet they couldn’t do anything about it. ”I mean I’ve brought it up before—to him that it doesn’t make sense. But…he just…he just changes the subject. But I mean like you said if he’s still obsessed with Jas then why does he even care?” Laur wanted to answer her own question but she was too scared of her own answer. Laurel hadn’t really ever revealed to Damien that she had attempted to end the relationship with Thad before and she wondered if that would make things worse.
Laurel just wanted to take the time they had right now and use it. It was rare that they were both alone. She knew a kiss probably wouldn’t happen a second time but just the empty place on her back where his hand used to lay was already missing the warmth of his hand. She bit down on her lower lip wishing that maybe if she closed her eyes tight enough that when she opened them everything would fix itself. ”I’m at a dead end, Damien…I mean the old me is dead but not gone,” Her eyes watched mirrored his. Wishing she had all the answers when in reality she didn’t have any idea what to do. ”I just—I just don’t want to constantly hide anymore, I want this!” Laurel replied pointing at the crazy blanket and the broken desk. ”I want this! At least this means I’m living, I want to be free to be me whenever I want to be. For someone to not care if I can’t get it right on the first try and not give up on me even on the second try, I want someone to believe in me for once in my life!” Laurel mumbled. ”And you have always done that,” Laur whispered this time looking up from her hands to meet his gaze. ”It’s always been you…” Laur stated a little more matter of fact. Only she just didn’t know how to fix any of it and she was extremely frustrated with the idea. Most girls could call their mothers or best friends. In these cases none of those options would help her now.
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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Post by damien vincent nott on Oct 9, 2013 2:25:37 GMT
There wasn't any going back now. What they had was just laid out there right on the metaphorical table. It was a little relief that she cared about him. More than just their usual friend relationship. Damien wasn't exactly sure when he began developing feelings for Laurel, but he realized they had been getting more intense rapidly lately. Every time he saw her (apart from Thad anyway) he just felt better. It was the only way he knew to describe it. Even if she put up a false face in front of others, he knew who she really was. So while that fake side of her completely annoyed him, he could deal with it, at least for now, because he knew she wasn't really like that. He knew she was more like him. Maybe she hadn't been practicing or obsessively reading for as long as he had, but she wasn't one of those girls who only cared about their make up and what outfit they would be wearing the next day. Knowing that she was actively trying to better herself in an attempt at a greater future was one of the things he found most attractive about her. It wasn't the only thing, of course, but for the last few years he hadn't allowed himself to even consider the possibility of being with her, so why focus on what was attractive about the woman? Now his mind had apparently decided it just didn't give a damn.
Damien nodded. A mess was exactly the right word for what they found themselves in. He was romantically interested in a girl who had a boyfriend already. There was nothing gentlemanly about that feeling even if he didn't like the person she was seeing. Then they had Dahlia to worry about. Damien didn't know how his twin would react. He would be the first to admit that he felt very protective over his sister, probably to a point that boarder lined invasive. But after the life they had had, he didn't see how anyone could really blame him. And she only seemed to care about it whenever she got interested in a new guy, at which point Damien would criticize whatever man had come into his sister's life just because he didn't trust hardly anyone anymore. Her happiness was very important to him, though, and he didn't know how she would react if she knew that Damien cared for one of her friends in a way that went beyond a simple friendship. And what if they got around all of that? Damien knew that eventually he wouldn't be able to deal with having two Laurels – the one who was herself and the one who cared about what others thought. It would get exhausting and he wasn't sure if his life could handle that. It was the reasonable side of him sticking it's two cents in again. But Damien shoved that aside. He wanted to be with Laurel, but he didn't see how it was going to be possible at this exact moment.
He watched as her hair changed color again and she stumbled over her words. If there was something he could have done he would have done it, but he didn't know what that something was supposed to be. He wasn't the kind of guy who messed around with someone who was in a relationship. Whenever he got with Jas it was while they were both single. They both recognized the need to be physical but neither of them wanted to be in a relationship with the other. But even though the other person involved was Lestrange, Damien couldn't bring himself to be okay with moving forward. At the same time, he really didn't want to make her choose. Picking him would mean a whole lot more mess and an enraged Thaddeus. At least, that's what he was thinking before she said she had tried to end it. Did he hear that right? Had she tried to break off her relationship with Thaddeus in the past? “He won't let you leave?” His voice sounded incredulous but if he thought about it he really shouldn't have been surprised. This was Thaddeus Lestrange. He was a controlling person, especially when it came to women. But the simple thought changed everything. Not the part of him that thought being with another man's girlfriend was okay, but if Laurel had tried to end it, was she really his girlfriend anymore? Damien saw it more as Thaddeus keeping Laurel against her will now instead of a respectful, thriving relationship.
The desire to hold her was growing again. While the little contact they had was dangerous for their situation, he couldn't help but want it. He focused on what she was saying in an attempt to get rid of the almost uncontrollable need to be close to her. Now that they knew how the other felt, Damien was having a hard time keeping his distance. But her words did nothing to help that. If she wanted to be more open about who she was around other people he didn't understand why she just didn't let them know. Stop hiding and let the chips fall where they may. At least as far as that was concerned. In the back of his mind he was aware that it made him sound a bit hypocritical, since his father was not in the loop about all of Damien's thoughts. That was besides the point, though. If Laurel wanted more of what they had, then maybe something between them could actually work... if they could get past the Thaddeus issue and the awkwardness that would be Dahlia. But he couldn't take the separation anymore. He walked over and put his arms around her, at a casual pace because he didn't want her to feel like he was trapping her. “Okay. So what do we do now?” Damien wasn't sure if there was even an answer to that question. What on earth could they do? He pulled away for a minute. “Do you want to be with Lestrange? I know you said he doesn't stay on topic when you bring it up, but if you just say it's done he doesn't have much of a choice.” He gave a small shrug, wondering if he wanted the answer. But it was a necessary question. “I mean, if he can call you his girlfriend all he wants, it doesn't make it true...”
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Post by laurel halle flint on Oct 10, 2013 7:07:12 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
Laurel knew she had done it the moment he repeated her phrase. She watched as Damien’s inner thoughts obviously took control. She was going to have a really hard time keeping Thad from losing his temper but she wasn’t quite sure what Damien was capable of either. She watched as he reacted and she almost felt bad for saying something. She didn’t love Thad it was as simple as that. The fact that he wasn’t faithful and she was—was the breaking point. Even the façade Laurel Flint wouldn’t have stood for that. Since she was faithful she at least wanted that in return. He had said he was going to be faithful but that was out the window probably the second night they started dating. And she had lost Jas completely over the whole ordeal. She sighed nodding her head. ”He…just…I don’t know, I really don’t know. He thinks differently than us,” Laurel finally came to the conclusion. It was all she had so she truly hoped that Damien could understand she was grasping at nothing in order to try and defend him a little bit. She had no idea why he wanted her to stay if he wasn’t content either except for the fact that she wasn’t happy with him. Could he possibly be that insecure or troubled that he needed her to make him feel okay? Was it even her or was it the fact that someone else could make her happy and he couldn’t? She was giving herself a headache trying to think like Thad. She could only imagine what the inside of his mind looked like.
Laurel was surprised when she felt Damien’s arms wrap around her. A sigh of relief echoed from her lips as she leaned her head against his chest. Far more comfortably then when they were inside of the blanket. Laurel let her arms wrap around his lower waist intertwisting her fingers behind his back. What did they do now? She had no idea. The moment Thad got a temper or acted like her father for some reason it completely shut down Laurel. She wasn’t sure why the only hunch she had was that it was because of the verbal abuse they dealt with constantly. Her mother hardly even talked at all these days. Simply nodded or scolded. That was the extent of her mother’s. She could feel Damien’s heart pounding and his chest gently rise and fall. It was almost soothing. ”No I don’t want any of that anymore. But you’re right, I suppose if I just state it and then…make a quick get away then things would be okay,” Laurel nodded, he could continue to call her his girlfriend but that wasn’t the part particularly that she was worried about. She was far more worried about the telling him. The moment he got mad she might shut down and she didn’t want that to happen. Even worse if he got really mad. Laurel knew Thad had quite the temper. She wasn’t quite sure if he would ever attempt to hurt her but she didn’t exactly want to find out.
”I’ll admit I’m kind of nervous…about telling him,” Thad was used to being in control so if she took it away from him she had no idea what the outcome would be. She held her breath for a moment trying to push some scary thoughts from her mind. That was just thinking too negative. Maybe if she thought a bit more positive the outcome would be better. She forced a small nod against his chest. ”I just hope it doesn’t get worse,” Laur mumbled before realizing Thad would probably find out who Laurel left him for. She couldn’t let Damien get hurt. She wasn’t sure if Thad had that in him and with their fathers it would be a stupid move on Thad’s part but would he chance it if he was angry in the moment? She bit down on her lip before closing her eyes. ”What if he finds out, Damien? What if he comes after you—what if he hurts you,” Laurel whispered the second half. ”I would never be able to forgive myself, Dahl would never forgive me,” Laurel kept scanning through several scenarios of Thad finding out it was Damien that had Laurel leaving him flat. She closed her eyes tight, giving his waist a little squeeze almost scared that he would disappear. ”I can’t let you get hurt…” Laurel whispered the previous tears threatening to reappear again.
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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Post by damien vincent nott on Oct 13, 2013 18:54:03 GMT
Damien wondered if he would ever be able to catch a break as far as Thaddeus was concerned. He really doubted it. While there was a lot to be said for being Theodore Nott's son and heir, Mr. Lestrange always seemed to be one step ahead. For starters, he was exactly the sort of child that Damien's father would dream of having. Or at least he would have been if Thaddeus wasn't so insane. Not that his father knew that Damien wasn't the perfect son. For all Theodore knew, Damien was determined to take his place if he should ever fall. The male half of the twins certainly had the family ethic. At least as far as his sister was concerned. He acted like he cared about his parents though. And he supposed he didn't hate them, but he didn't want to be what was expected of him either. But aside from that, Thaddeus seemed to damage anything that Damien actually cared about. For whatever reason he couldn't get over Damien's friend Jasmyn and he seemed to be getting friendly with Damien's twin. Thaddeus just had to have Laurel too. Well, Damien was going to be damned if he let Thaddeus Lestrange get in the way of this. He figured he deserved at least some happiness.
He glared at nothing in particular, his eyes trained on the wall but not really seeing it. He didn't know what bothered him more – that Thaddeus was apparently not letting her go, or that Laurel didn't put her foot down and just end it. How the hell was he supposed to react to something like this? If she tried to end it then there must not be a lot there. But did she just go along with whatever Thaddeus wanted because she thought Damien didn't want to be with her or was she really waiting for Thaddeus to grow a heart? “Of course he thinks differently than us. He's not all there.” Damien touched the side of his head near the temple. “Any decent person would just be willing to part ways and move on.” He sighed and tried to soften up a little. It probably wasn't her fault. He knew that Lestrange could be pretty persuasive.
Things just felt right when Damien had his arms around Laurel. He didn't know how to make sense of that just yet, things were just too complicated right now. Damien let out a low, humorless chuckle. “I doubt that Thaddeus could get any worse than he is. I'll go with you if you think it will help.” He ran a hand through her hair as they stood there. What did she mean what if he finds out? That was an odd sort of question, since if they were planning to start a relationship afterward Damien had no intentions on it being a secret. “I'm quite certain he will find out, Laurel. You didn't think we would just hide did you? He'll just have to deal with it.” He had to admit, though, that it was nice that someone was concerned about him. He supposed his friends could get concerned if the prospect of Damien against Thaddeus came about, but this was different. She cared about him in a different way. “I can take care of myself if that happens. Worst case scenario, one of us sends the other to the hospital wing. He knows I won't even try to kill him and I doubt he'll risk hurting me too badly either. We're pretty evenly matched if it comes down to that anyway.” Damien wasn't too concerned with the possible situation. Thaddeus was a little more cruel than Damien, but Damien had the smarts and general ability to stay level headed, so he wasn't going to let his guard down around Laurel's current boyfriend.
ooc: I think this may be coming to a close soon so we can move on. What do you think?
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Post by laurel halle flint on Oct 16, 2013 7:55:14 GMT
So scared of breaking it That you won't let it bend, And I wrote two hundred letters, I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed So let me be, And I'll set you free --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You say your faith is shaken,And you may be mistaken To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun,I'm desperate and confused So far away from you, I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run Why do you do what you do to me, yeah? Why won't you answer me, answer me, yeah?
Laurel quickly shook her head the moment Damien offered to go with. She was pretty sure someone would end up in the Hospital Wing and she wasn’t sure if she could stand to see it happen. ”No, it’s about time I stand up for myself anyways. I mean, what’s the worst that could happen?” Laur asked then realized that was a pretty bad thing to ask. She bit down on her lip staring at the sideview of Damien’s chest. ”Okay don’t answer that, don’t even think about it. But I’m sure nothing will happen, I just know it’d be worse if you came…” Laur sighed she was going to have to work up a lot of courage to do what she needed to. She just hoped if it came down to it she could tell him it was over and just leave. She wasn’t sure if he would take this well but hopefully with Jas and how he stared maybe it was just time. She was really hoping that was the answer because she couldn’t quite handle fighting with Thad. He reminded her too much of her father. She seemed to clam up the moment her father started yelling and it couldn’t happen this time. Laurel didn’t think they could hide a relationship but at the same time she wished they could. She didn’t want anyone getting hurt or the whole situation escalating. She just wanted to disappear and have everything magically fix itself. ”No…I mean, I wish we could hide but that just wouldn’t work. I just wish things would fix itself,” Laur whispered finally admitting it.
Laurel groaned as he claimed the worse they could do was land the other in the Hospital Wing. That wasn’t exactly something she wanted to see something happen. ”Yeah, and that’s terrible enough! Not to mention what would your fathers say! Ugh, Damien I just don’t want anyone hurt and I just want the drama to fade away,” Laur sighed quietly. ”Yeah…in a perfect world that would happen,” She mused quietly. She just didn’t want anyone hurt. She leaned away from his chest before looking around before looking back towards the door. ”I’ll talk to him tomorrow after classes. I’ll get this mess figured out. But I’m guessing we should probably start heading back before we’re caught with one of our many messes,” Laur smiled softly before turning and carefully picking up the cursed blanket before walking back to Damien as handed it to him. ”Want to just meet me after classes tomorrow? It’ll probably take a while with Thad but…we could meet back here two hours after classes are over? That should be enough time for the yell fest to die down,” Laur replied with a small smile. She was hiding just exactly how scared she was but maybe for Damien, for once she would muster up all the confidence she had and just do it.
ooc: sounds good to me!
I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me
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This was made by NAT, please do not steal. Song lyrics belong to Maroon 5 Batman is always watching...always.
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SEVENTH YEAR
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Post by damien vincent nott on Oct 19, 2013 20:38:55 GMT
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