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Post by jessica nicole greyback on Feb 11, 2014 20:18:32 GMT
 Full moons were a pain in the bum. This one had been particularly horrible. The condition she usually ended up in sometimes led the nurses to think that Jessica wasn't taking her Wolfsbane Potion. That was ridiculous of course. Jessica always came right to the hospital wing before the night even started so she could take her stupid medicine. The potion was supposed to help her retain some of her humanity during the transformation, but it didn't work right with her. Maybe it was because she was the biological daughter of Fenrir Greyback, though she wasn't sure any of her half siblings had similar issues. That led her to think that there was probably just something wrong with her. What else could the answer be? It was the entire reason she had dedicated herself to getting the grades she would need to become a healer at St. Mungo's. That was her goal, what she wanted to do after she left Hogwarts. And the entire reason was so she could help find a cure for her little condition. She hated that she was a werewolf. If Fenrir had just left her and her mother alone, she wouldn't be in this situation. But no, he'd taken her as a child for a few days. Jess had been born completely human, despite having a werewolf for a father. But that hadn't stopped him from coming to get her, biting her, and returning her to her mother as a different species all together. But that was just how Fenrir was. Jessica hated him.
This full moon had taken a greater toll on the young werewolf than usual. It was normal for her to return to school with some cuts and bruises, the occasional broken bone even. She was always a little weaker, a little more drained than before the full moon. The worst part was that she couldn't control herself as a werewolf, but she remembered everything when she changed back into a human. It made for some pretty low self-esteem sometimes. This time she had been running through the forbidden forest, trying to attack an animal. Unfortunately the animal didn't want to go down without a fight. She returned to the hospital wing with some pretty major gashes and a few broken ribs. She felt like her entire body was black and blue with bruises, though she was also pretty sure that was an exaggeration.
Jessica had been stuck in the hospital wing all day. Despite the fact that her injuries were healing, she had been ordered to stay in the wing, out of class and on hold as far as prefect duty went. The poor girl was starting to go stir crazy. It didn't matter to her that every time she moved she winced a little, she just didn't want to be kept in the hospital wing this long. The nurse didn't want to hear any of it. Apparently she was being kept for observation. She sighed and got out of bed, wincing a little but moving anyway, mostly to spite the nurse who wanted her to rest but partially because she thought if she kept lying down she was just going to go crazy. She went to the window and watched the students walking around the grounds. “Lucky,” she muttered, knowing fully well none of them could hear her. She didn't know what bothered her most – the lying around, or the fact that she would be playing catch up in all of her classes.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 12, 2014 3:47:46 GMT
i'll be here for you Stories always circulated around the Longbottom home about their father's part in the war. About the war, in general and how many people died that night. One in particular story that did often find its way into the inner story circle was about the werewolves, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Remus Lupin was one man, one werewolf that his father would always talk so highly about. That man had been a war hero that tragically died in battle along with his wife, the beautiful Tonks. Even with stories like these about the good werewolves in the world, it never stopped some people from fearing them and not because they feared the unknown but because of Fenrir Greyback and his heard.
It would come to no surprise that many people shivered at that name. They despised the fact that he was one of the men that managed to escape the battle. He survived and he was one of the people that deserved to be killed. He turned many people into werewolves and if he didn't turn them he killed them. That was why when Greyback children started to pop up into Hogwarts many parents feared for their children's lives including his own family’s fear.
He remembered writing a few letters home to his mum who would often find herself worrying about her son's new companion in the Ravenclaw girl. His father would often find himself keeping a close eye on the Greyback children in fear of his own children's safety. Julian would not deny that at the first meeting of the Greyback children including Jessica he had a small fear that dwelled into his heart. Could these children turn out like their father? He had been quick to learn not to judge a book by its cover a trait that his father, and mother had to learn but it had just taken them a little while longer.
As the years progressed on people throughout the school realized not to judge someone by who their parents are, or what they are, that just because some of the children's father was Fenrir Greyback...they were not their father. Julian had been quick to learn this and this was why he was standing in the Hospital Wing at this moment, his eyes looking upon Jessica Greyback the girl he was in love with. Because he had been quick to learn the last name she wore did not define here. He had been quick to fall for the intelligent Ravenclaw girl.
"Jessica?"
He spoke softly. He had heard she'd been in the Hospital Wing which wasn’t the first time, nor would it probably be the last time but every time she found herself in this place...every time, he found himself showing up rather they were together, or fighting, or not together. Today they weren't together but that didn't stop the ache in his heart the moment he saw her. Because Julian Longbottom loved Jessica Greyback. He would forever show up at this door every time she found herself hurt from a bad night from the 'disease' her father cursed her with, something he wished he could help her with but it seemed impossible. He couldn’t take this pain she faced away from her. It bothered him for the fact he always felt the need to protect her but he couldn’t even protect her from herself.
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SEVENTH YEAR
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Post by jessica nicole greyback on Feb 12, 2014 20:09:12 GMT
The nurse seemed to always be around. It was so frustrating. Jessica would have tried to sneak out if she could, but she never found an opportunity. Every time she glanced in the nurse's direction the woman was there, doing some sort of work. It was obvious that she wasn't going to let Jessica out of her sight. Maybe that was because, despite the fact that Jessica was a prefect, she had been able to sneak out of the Hospital Wing before. Part of her wondered if they had started charming the doors and windows to recognize her particular body in case she tried to just walk right out. All she wanted to do was go to class. Why couldn't they let her do that much? Everything was healing like it should, granted it was taking a little longer than usual because she had been more damaged when she returned this time than the times before, but still, she didn't think it was that big of a risk to let her out. It almost felt like she were trapped in a prison. Not Azkaban, of course, but a muggle prison maybe. She was being kept in a single room against her will.
She was looking out the window again when she heard her name. Jess really hadn't expected anyone to come visit her, but she supposed she should have. Even if they weren't together, Julian was always there when she needed him. She felt horrible for realizing that, but she always tried to be there for him too. There was just something about him that drew her towards him. Even if they argued all the time, she knew that she wanted to be with him. Sometimes she liked to think that the fact that she was a werewolf caused a lot of the arguing. Maybe she had more of a temper because of that little fact. But she knew it was mostly just her fault. She believed rumors too quickly and she wasn't one to stop arguing once things had started. She needed to change that.
“Hey,” she said with a small smile, finally turning around to see him. She had waited for a moment to collect her thoughts. She felt like she had to be prepared to see him since they weren't currently in a relationship. That probably meant that they should be together, but Jess put that from her mind at the moment. She would think about that later. “You didn't have to come over. They aren't letting me leave or anything. It's a little infuriating actually.” She sighed and sat on the bed she had been assigned. It wasn't anything remarkable, just a flat bed. Kind of uncomfortable, really. Funny how a place that was supposed to make students feel better didn't even have a comfortable bed for them to lie down on. She wished they would at least let her sleep in her dorm. That bed was much more comfortable.
Jessica was actually pretty lucky, and she knew it, when she cared to think about it. For some, her name had brought fear. She was able to make some friends after being sorted into Ravenclaw and not Slytherin, but she knew there were still people who were afraid of her. Julian was not one of those people. She was incredibly lucky to have him in her life. She just wished that she could figure out how to keep him there. She hated the fact that she was a jealous person. She was jealous even when she just thought someone might be interested in him. It was a little hypocritical, since Jessica was a flirt herself, but she wasn't sure how to control that part of her. “You could sit down if you want... and visit me for a little while? I don't think I'll be getting the chance to talk to many other people any time soon.” She smiled and tried to make a little joke out of her situation, but she wished she could at least go to the Great Hall and get something to eat.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2014 4:08:23 GMT
i'll be here for you Julian found himself a little uneasy as he stood from a distance watching the girl before him intently. He examined her body not in a fashion as if he were checking her out but to examine the bruises she formed from the night. He knew that one of her dreams was to find a cure for herself and he wished her luck in this process. If he could figure out a spell or a potion to help her he would travel a thousand distances to help in an effort to cure her. She didn't deserve this not to say that the other siblings do it was just the simple fact that Julian had to watch her suffer, he had to deal with the aftermath of this 'illness' that took over her. He found himself in the Hospital Wing every time she found herself hurt. Every time the moon would rise he always worried that something more powerful would find her that night. He knew she could handle her own as a werewolf from most everything but it never stopped the fear.
Some would wonder why he was at the Hospital seeing her right now because as of now the two were broken up. Even broken up however, a part of Julian always remained with Jessica and he knew it always would. He used to fear this every time they broke up because it always brought them back together and he was always told it was slightly unhealthy. That what the two did to each other was unhealthy and they really ought to either face the music that they didn't belong together, or that they did but they had a lot to work on which meant no more games with other people. Not only did it cause them to get hurt but it caused the people they went after to get hurt as well. Throughout the past year the woman that'd he take on dates he assumed never gave him much time because it was all too clear to everyone now that Julian's heart was still very much in this girls hands.
This fear he once let dwell into his mind had slowly left. Instead of assuming, they weren't meant to be together he never allowed himself to fully believe that. Instead, he focused on the fact that if they weren't meant to be they wouldn't always find themselves coming back to each other. As soon as one of them were hurt or seemed to be, moving on there was the other person, right there, to comfort them, or get their attraction back on path to each other. Julian had grown to grasp that his life would always find Jessica in it again over and over again. He wanted it that way and he almost felt as if he needed it that way. He needed her. And, he felt part of her needed him to.
"I brought you something," he gave a soft smile, as he set a chocolate frog on the bedside table, plopping down on the bed that sat next to hers.
He sat in silence a bit longer as he listened to her speak. He knew how much she hated it here and it was one of the reasons he came to visit. He knew how much she hated missing school and how much she hated not having anybody around. He knew he had gone stir crazy a few times in here after some bad Qudditch Matches and she always showed up to keep him company. It never mattered if they were together or not, part of them was always together in the way that they'd always be there for each other when needed. To the point, it often broke up their other short lived relationships.
"I know I didn't have to come."
"I wanted to come and see how you were doing." he sighed a bit as he let his eyes drift out the window, looking away from her, "I've missed you Jess."
His voice was soft as his eyes averted back to her. He had seen her a few times around school since their last break up but it just wasn't enough. Every second away from her, not being with her felt like a thousand seconds wasted.
He wished they could drop all their flaws and just make things work...he was determined to believe they were meant to work even while they were broken up. But sadly, it was never that simple.
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SEVENTH YEAR
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Post by jessica nicole greyback on Mar 1, 2014 8:46:45 GMT
Why did that boy always have to know just what to say to make her feel better? Oh yeah, because he was basically awesome. It was times like these when Jessica wondered how she could let herself believe stupid rumors while they were together. She knew Julian better than that. She knew perfectly well that he would never intentionally hurt her. He would never cheat on her. And for Merlin's sake he would always be there for her. She really did not deserve that kind of loyalty sometimes. She promised herself that if they ever worked out their differences she wouldn't let a stupid rumor come between them again. If they got into a fight they would just have to argue until something got worked out. If they could get back together. She wasn't sure how to even start having that sort of conversation. But of course, Julian did. He said it all when he said he missed her. Why was their relationship so complicated? As much as Jessica would have liked, she couldn't blame it all on the fact that she was a werewolf. She knew she had some major personality issues. She needed, desperately, to get over them.
“You're way too good to me sometimes, you know that right?” she said with a small smile, looking down at the floor. “I've missed you too, Jules. A lot.” It was a small admission and she was sure that he knew it already, but she felt better for having said it anyway. How could he not know that she missed him? Sure, she supposed she acted like it, but any time they were in the same room she caught herself trying to catch just the shortest glimpse of him. She was sure that he had seen her from time-to-time doing it too.
She sighed and looked up at him again. “So, how are things going? Classes and stuff? Quidditch?” They had some classes together since they were in the same year, but they were in different houses so they weren't around each other all the time. And then there was Quidditch. Jess was much more of a bookworm than an athlete. She figured she got enough exercise once a month when she turned into a horrifying creature anyway. But when she and Julian were together, she at least made the effort to make it to his games, even if he was in an opposing house. When they were broken up she tried to stay away from them, but she always asked around to find out who had won. And really, in a place like Hogwarts it was kind of difficult to not find out what had happened at a Quidditch game.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 2, 2014 19:31:04 GMT
i'll be here for you "I'm good to you because you're good to me,"
when were not at each other’s throats his thoughts were quick to add in. Thankfully, Julian had managed not to blurt that part out. It wouldn't be a lie however, because when the two needed each other they were always there for one another. It never mattered how pissed off they were or how wounded they had been from a previous fight they still made sure to drop differences aside in the time of need. He may have showed up here for her today but it would come to no surprise, that whenever Julian found himself beat up during a Qudditch match that sent him off into the Hospital Wing that she'd be one of the first to come visit him.
"Three months ago, the same exact day you saw me kissing Tabitha, that same day I ended up getting a concussion out on the field and you even beat her into coming to see if I was okay," at the thought he frowned a bit, staring down at the ground now not able to even really look at her. Part of him wished he hadn't mentioned Tabitha because he had remembered seeing the hurt etched out into her eyes, and watched her walk off with some other guy. Tabitha had actually agreed to kiss Julian just to upset Jess because Jess had Tabitha's ex-boyfriend trying to hook-up with her. Julian didn't know if Jess ever hooked up with the bloke, but both him and Tabitha had the intention of trying to make the two jealous. He hated himself for doing stupid stunts, which he knew would hurt her. In the moment, the only thing that ever mattered when he flirted with other girls, or dated other girls, was to get her back for hurting him. And, it was a never ending cycle with the two of them.
He sighed a bit still staring at the ground, why do we do this to each other? he wanted to ask but the words never were spoken. Before, he was even able to dwell on it for much longer she asked her own questions. Simple questions. "Good," a one-word, short answer. One word that was a compete lie. After their last break-up, his grades had tumbled down, and the Captain of the Gryffindor Qudditch team kept on him about getting his head back into the game. But, no matter, how hard he attempted, his mind always drifted back to the girl sitting across from him. "How have things been with you?" he asked in return, figuring they had to be going better for her. She always seemed to hold herself up better than he ever was able to. Looks could be deceiving but his perception every time he got a tiny look of her...she always seemed to be doing just fine without him, which always left a sting in the center of his heart.
It had been good to hear her say she missed him too but by god, there was no way possible she missed him as much as he missed her. He was able to put on a good show once in a while when his eyes crossed paths with her but as soon as he lost connection with her Julian's show curtains pulled back and he was left with a broken heart again, left missing her, always missing her.
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SEVENTH YEAR
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Post by jessica nicole greyback on Mar 6, 2014 20:07:14 GMT
Jessica did not like remembering that she had seen him kissing someone else. Of course, at the time he had had every right to do so. They weren't together. She'd been seeing someone else (though not who the girl thought she'd been seeing, apparently) and it only served her right to see him with someone else too. It just hadn't been very pleasant. Then again, their break ups never were very pleasant. But like he said, she had been one of the first people there to visit him when he'd been injured. It hadn't mattered to her that he had kissed someone else, she just wanted to know that he was alright. It made her wonder why they did these things to each other. Obviously it wasn't working. They drove each other apart when they were together by arguing but they always came right back to each other. What did that say about them? It was their seventh year and they were getting ready to leave Hogwarts and actually get real jobs. What would happen to them if they never made up? Would this be it? It couldn't be it. Jess refused to believe that they wouldn't be together again.
“Well I had to make sure you were okay, didn't I?” She said with a smile. This was the reason they were supposed to be together. He could make her smile when no one else could, even when talking about something that was painful to remember. Even when she was in the hospital wing because she was an insane creature once a month. What she wouldn't give to have regular girl problems. It would be such a relief to not have to take a potion during the full moon and not come back bruised and scraped up. She had to find a cure for this. Maybe it would take some of the stress off of her and she could actually be a normal person, a normal friend, and a normal girlfriend. But maybe that was just too much to ask for.
She shifted a little when he said that he was good. Well, that wasn't much of an answer. It caught her off guard a little bit. She was kind of hoping it would start a conversation for them, something that might make him stay in the wing a little longer to visit. She didn't think Julian would leave her there, but she didn't want things to get awkward either. She didn't want him to feel weirded out and leave. She took a deep breath when he returned the question. How was she supposed to answer that? She knew she looked like she was put together, but that was probably just because she was a Ravenclaw. She knew how to put her mind into studying. But even with that, she knew there were people in her house who were getting fed up with her little mood swings. She just wasn't the same without Julian. She shrugged. “Well, I'm in the hospital wing... so not so great,” she said, trying to laugh it off. She sighed and frowned. “Actually, to tell you the truth, not so good otherwise either. Classes are fine, or were fine before I landed in here, but things just aren't... right...” She trailed off, not knowing how else to explain it.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 12, 2014 2:47:54 GMT
i'll be here for you Julian Longbottom never felt complete without Jessica Greyback. He had found himself trying to warp his brain into telling himself he was perfectly great without her. He had tried to convince himself time and time again that he didn't need her in his life, that he didn't miss her. These processes, these mind games he put his heart, and his head through never seized to work. No matter where he was at in his life, what he was doing his heart always found its way back to her. Back to wanting her in his life, back to missing her, and back to wanting her to be his girl. He couldn't even fathom the idea of another man taking his place, another man holding her, and telling her he loved her. He'd witnessed it a few times in his life but it always tortured his heart, and toyed with his head.
Sitting across from her now was painful in itself. She sat in the same room as him and all he wanted to do was hold her, and to tell her he wanted her. The distance felt so real when they were apart and he could only imagine what would happen after this year. What would happen if the two never reunited? What would happen when they graduated and moved on with their lives? Would that honestly just be it for the two of them...never to see each other again? To move on with their lives and find other people to settle down with in the future? Truth be told, Julian couldn't even see a life without Jess, and if they were to never reconnect he knew he'd just wrap himself into Qudditch and that would be his life. He always planned on making time for her when they graduated, even when he saw himself going pro, but without Jess he knew...he'd never really live life, only through Qudditch. Sure the boy had his friends in Hogwarts but would they really last throughout his adulthood? He wasn’t sure because once you graduated your life changed. He knew he’d see them at reunions, and send owls but he also knew it’d be rare to find time where he’d be able to chill with them as he once had been able to here at Hogwarts. It was a scary thought…the thought of leaving Hogwarts, growing up, and leaving behind people you cared about.
His eyes drifted out the window for a few moments, as he heard her answer. How were they both able to put on such a show? When the two were separated if they saw each other they always managed to make themselves look completely happy, when inside they were miserable. Why couldn't they just take down their guards and open up? Let the other know they meant a lot to one another, that when it came to other people getting in-between them it shouldn't affect them because they loved each other, they belonged together, they couldn't have gotten this far just to walk away. The jealousy between the two couldn't be so severe if they didn't mean something to one another. They were toxic for each other but just like a volcano, it needed lave to erupt. It may be destructive, but they really weren't Julian, or Jess, without each other.
"Why do we do this to each other?" a short question, but the meaning behind it was so much more. "I'm miserable without you, Jess." his eyes were a bit watery as he clapped his hands together, and his vision turned to look at her.
"What’s going to happen to us when were outta here?" the words lingered in the air, as his eyes dropped back down to the ground, avoiding her at all cost.
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